i spend way too much time online.

case in point.

Ethan, the truth behind my future husband

So while in the hell hole my mother calls home. I got to meet a boy. named Ethan.
and I have decided to marry him.
and have his babies.
hahahaha jk....
welll sort of.
but he is gorgeous.
so here is a picture of Ethan.

....
I think it would be better if he was nakked but stillll.

maybe a real blog later?
xoxo
Stephani

bloggy blog blog!

dude, so it makes me so happy to see other ARMSAC girls besides me and steph write on here.

welcome to the blog crystal! ren and mel just have to write and we'll be one big blogging family!

there's no real purpose to this blog. i just wanted to post.

i was cleaning out some stuff today and i came across so much stuff that i forgot i had. some of it made me super happy (like finding my first pair of converse and realizing they still fit and finding about 20 shirts that i used to wear all the time) and some made me cry. (like finding mally the absinthe bear and the map of nodd.) but it was all fun to go through. i can't believe i was going to just throw everything away. i'm glad i went through it.

tomorrow is my last day in this house, in this city, in this state. and i thought i'd be so ready to go and be super stoked about it. and i am...but finding those things made me realize just how much life i had here.

i mean i was never popular, i never had many friends, and i was the biggest loser in the history of the world, but it was home. brookhaven helped me come out of my shell. i used to be the quiet girl who read books (and to be honest harry potter slash) and talked to will all the time. then i found forensics and for better or worse it made me who i am. it forced me out of my comfort zone so much it's insane. and i'm grateful.

hahah who said by hanner just came on.

and i'm dancing along like an idiot because it's oddly fitting.

i don't know what the future's gonna hold. i don't know what tomorrow will bring when i finish cleaning and packing. but i do know one thing.





































































































who said who said i can't be superman?

i say, i say that i know i can!



had to. :)

I put the C in ARMSAC

hello there. I'm Crystal...nicknamed Crystalily by the wonderful Stephani...and Crysters by the amazing Ashley. Hm..a little about me. I'm 18..currently living in Michigan...and I'm the eldest yet middle child. Confused? Well it's simple. I'm the eldest child with my mom but middle child for my dad. Oh and I turn 19 in a little over 2 months...scary.

Now I see that the other two girls have talked about the rest of us ARMSAC girls in their first or second post...or I guess we've been mentioned in almost everyone of them but still. I figure I can be completely unoriginal at this point and do the same.

Ashley...oh geez what to say about her? She's the oldest age wise, but definitely the youngest in her own way. Definitely still a kid at heart, but then again I suppose we all are. Ash is random and funny and just incredible. She's an amazing writer even though she thinks otherwise, but the truth is I love her writing. It's kind of why I commented on the things that she wrote over on JBF. Which of course was the start of a beautiful friendship.

Ren...the baby of the group age wise, but if you go by maturity I would definitely put her as the oldest, and I totally mean that as a good thing. She's like the 'old soul' of the group I suppose. The one who seems wise beyond her years. And I have to admit this, I am totally jealous of her way with words. She's an incredible author and I swear I see her being published one day. And I will totally be in line to by that book the day it comes out...if I have the money. But I will definitely by that book.

Melissa...the artist of the group. Seriously the talent for drawing...amazing. Her comics are totally love...as well as her stories. I love all of her writing, especially the crack! fics that she does.. They are so entertaining. And Mel I know the two of us don't talk all that often, but it doesn't make love you any less.

and last but certainly not least, Stephani...the crazy, perverted one of the group, although her and Ashley seem to share that. I wonder if that's why the two of them seem to fight so much sometimes, the fact that they do have somewhat similar personalities...and yet they are so different. Anyway Stephani is the only ARMSAC girl that I have already had the privilege to meet...and it was incredible. So much fun...even the perverted IM convos about my brother. It probably wouldn't have really been a trip with Stephani if at least one of those didn't happen. Here is yet another amazing writer...and yet another one who doesn't realize it.

All of these girls are incredible...and I know that at least a few of them don't see that, whether it be sometimes or all the time. But they are. And these last how many ever weeks it was that I didn't have internet access was torture because I didn't get the chance to talk to them that much. Hopefully I don't have to go without internet again for a long ass time.

It is an honor to be included in this group of amazingly, wonderful and beautiful girls. Whether it be in their stories or just in the friendships that I have with them. I love you girls and I so hope that we are able to stay friends until we are all old and in retirement homes somewhere. And hopefully when we are in a retirement home, we're all in the same one. Just think of all the fun we could have even then.

Oh and one last thing before I forget (which I almost did)...I so can't wait until July. This may (probably will) just be the best summer of my life so far.

~*Crystal

A New Year, A New Cheer, A Old Fear

Every year everything stays the same. I make new friends and loose old friends. I have boyfriends, get dumped and get screwed over by the people I love which will always stink with a capital STINK.
Currently I'm at my mothers house in the middle of nowhere in North Carolina. Fun right not.
I hate my stepdad, that's nothing new I've hated him for as long as I can remember but I think he really went ot a new level of making me hate him this time.
My birthday is Christmas which means I turned 18(finally!!!!) and my whole family at my mom's house wished me a happy birthday and talked to me and merry christmas and all that jazz on my birthday...except my step-dad. I come to his house and he doesn't wish me a happy birthday infact the three things he says to me are. "did it snow." "Thanks for the shirts" and "are you coming with us?" yea and then he freaking yells at me because of how i am sitting on a couch, when the whole reason i am sitting that way on the couch is because HIS two youngest children (my half sister and brother) are playing on my laptop with me and if i sit the right way they can't play with me. WTF. Ugh so i like went upstairs and said they never had to see me again.
I went back home saw people i missed, people who i didn't miss, people who never talked to me and people who I wished i talked to more. I called a boy the wrong name, oh freaking well i never talked to him seriously maybe once since ninth grade. Got my ears pierced talked my friend into getting her ears pierced and another into getting her eyebrow pierced. Almost got my lip pierced, went to a hooka lounge and remembered why i was glad i didn't live there still.
I'm back in North Carolina now and I've come to realize three things. I'm so much happier when my step dad isn't around. My half siblings(Kara & Jr.) and one of my step sisters(Nikki) are pretty much the only reason I come home. And I'm blind as a bat. Seriously FREAKING BLIND.
I can't wait to go home tomorrow to see my kittens, my friends, my bed. It will all be amazing. I can't waaaaait! (Plus i get to have an awesome armsac chat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
This is a blog of nothing really but I wanted to blog, i needed to blog, blogging is the most important thing ever.

Ashley you missed something on your pretty little list thingie! We are going to see Harry Potter on the 19th(i believe) cause we can!
Crystal first blogggg sweeeeeto!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and everyone else who is reading this.
Happy new year(a little bit late) and remember everything isn't how it seems.

xoxo
Stephani

ps Ash I'm gonna post the picture of him in bed tomorrow unless i find it on this comp lol<3

just a blog to keep track of junk

okay it seems like every day us girls think of something new we want to at ARMSAC 09. being the savvy planner person that i am (psh, yeah right) i've decided to write down all of the plans we've made so far so we can keep track of it.

(yes, if we need to update this, we can just copy and paste all of this here into a new blog and add to it, k?)

okay so ARMSAC is officially scheduled for July 11-22nd. (Saturday is the 11th, Wednesday is the 22nd...if that matters.)

as of right now here is all we have "planned." please correct me if i'm wrong on any of these dates or if i missed something. for days we haven't really picked a day/night for i just put something there. (ie new york day, movie night...blah blah)

11th - arrive. (me, ricky and crystal all meet up with steph at the airport of awesomeness.)

12th - PENGUINS OMG.

13th - mel's house/live chat (oh yeah, it's happening)

14th - movie night?

15th - cow tipping?

16th - new york?

17th - armsac's prom/hotel party...oh yeahhh

18 - ?

19 - ?

20 - ?

21 - ?

22 - bye bye!

okay, so i lazy putting stuff up.

but whatevs.

resolution revolution.

it's been the new year for less than two hours, and i can already feel it's going to be a better year. i mean i'm not gonna kid myself...i know it's going to be hard and i'll find plenty to bitch about in the future (maybe even later today) but as far as the feeling goes, i think it's gonna be a great year.

i don't remember the last time i've felt so free. it really feels like i've been lifted out of something bad and into something good. i know what made me feel this way, but i don't want to say it. but i want to be honest, so here goes...

i think my friendship with will was just stagnant. it wasn't going anywhere and i HATED being ignored. i even hated him every now and then. and then i decided to just tell him and we agreed not to be friends, and ever since...i've been floating.

i think our friendship had been dying for a while we were just scared to do anything about it. but i can't be scared anymore.

and my last blog was proof that something needed to happen. i was so frazzled and frantic. now, not so much.

so i never make new years resolutions because i never really remember them or quit them, but this year i'm gonna make a few.

so here goes...make sure i keep them up. :)

1. save save save. we all know this needs to happen.
2. find whatever makes me happy, and do it. i'm tired of being a pushover and doing whatever. i need to start thinking about myself.
3. be a better friend. i don't want to be a sometimes friend. i want all of my friends to know i'm there for them.
4. listen to more music. especially the oldies i've forgotten about. it's been too long since i've pulled out my punk albums.
5. diet. hahah we all know how much i've tried this one.

i can do this. i feel like i can do anything. this is a great start to an awesome year.

this year will be the ARMSAC meeting...wth..it's getting so close!