blech

ok so i've been feeling emotional and sick to my stomach since like Friday.

and i have no idea why.

and then things happen to my friends.

first there is the thing with Steph's boyfriend.

while i know he's going to be okay it was still a shock.

and now another friend of mine is in the hospital because she tried to break up with her abusive boyfriend.

and there have been multiple times where i've just felt like bursting out crying...

and a few times where i actually have.

and here comes one of those urges again...

gah it sucks and i just want it to end.

okay urge gone for now.

i just feel like i have to get away...

but the only place i could really go is my mom's and while i dislike her...

right about now it isn't such an unappealing thought.

i so wish i could just go to another state or something...

just somewhere far away.

eh i'm done for now...

sorry if i brought any of you down.

just needed to get this off my chest.

<3

Crystal