Writing again,

is so weird.
idk. but I've missed it.

ain't no party like a nick j party

sooo, after reading part two of steph's new multishot, which is have to say is insanely awesome though i am upset that nick j and i have yet to make out, i came up with an idea.

granted you guys probably knew i'd be celebrating nick j's birthday and legalness on his birthday, but NOW I REALLY WANT TO HAVE A NICK J PARTY WITH YOU GUYS!

i realize that could be hard to do. money is always a factor, and my location definitely sucks. but in my head it sounds AWESOME!

it's so silly but i have it all thought out. you guys would get here, chill out at my house for a day (and sleep and relax if you drove instead of got on a plane.) and then the next day we'd take the 3 hour trip to the place i miss so much, brookhaven mississippi. it's a mini slice of heaven, that place, but you guys would think it would suck. you could meet williekins and we'd chill out in a hotel room, get wickedly drunk, eat cake and talk about nick j and his LEGALNESS and how much i wanna molest him. (well, it's not molestation if he's willing, which he WILL be.)

i think we could manage a few days without killing each other. i definitely think 2 weeks was too much of a strain on all of us because it was new and everything. but i still love you guys and this could be our armsac '10.

i really meant for my first new post on here to be extremely serious and to talk about last year, but fuck that. we all changed because of armsac '09 and no matter how we try to talk about it, we all remember what happened. but we can still rise above it.

sooooo...LET'S DO THIS!

What happened, slightly edited so you don't know who

So one of my friends hasn’t talked to me since in months. & like I try to talk to him via facebook, myspace, aim and he never answers me. But I know he cares about me because he was my boyfriend for like six months last year. And he randomly like hugs me and tells me he loves me when we are together. And like I got over him not talking to me since whenever, I sent him a Christmas card, so I was over it and I completely and totally was forgetting him. And then I go online today and he commeneted on two of my pictures with heartss and I just I started to cry, this makes me a complete and total loser I understand really, but I mean it’s been six months. Without so much as a hi and those heartss made my day. &&& this is really all I have to say to that.I haven’t thought of you in a while. & then you go & make me remember & break my heart once again, thanks for the tears.

Post Emo Post.

last night was a bad moment for me. I legit broke into tears because of a <3. Yea. :/

I haven't thought of you in a while.

& then you go & make me remember & break my heart once again, thanks for the tears.

Also I kinda wanna delete the part of me & ashley the last two posts.

I think we should give this a new try

posting on the ARMSAC blog. I mean we aren't as tight as we were before but at least we got over the bad stuff. and this is our way to get back to one another. so what do you say?